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The weather has turned truly gorgeous this week--last weekend was lovely, Monday and Tuesday were atrocious but had lightning and thunder (which Seattle nearly never gets!) and then it slowly became beautiful again. Just in time for a three-day weekend, and man, I am not looking forward to the traffic on the commute home. On the plus side, since it is Friday, I feel less of the pressing "get me home now so I don't waste precious daylight" that I do--every other day of the week. Which is hilarious because of the five or six people in my office who know I'm moving, all of them have asked if I'm moving closer to the office. I'm not; I'm moving further away! But I have ascertained I want to stay in the downtown area if I can, because the neighborhood is lovely, the reviews were good, and every time I've been by (first to preview and then to walkthrough; I'll be there again tomorrow) I have just been so happy looking at it. It will be mine. :(

So the HMD crit meme is going around again, and I commented to that! And both of the comments I got mentioned my balance (and lack of thereof, orz) and lack of playing lately, which are ... both things that I have definitely noticed! I think I have logs where I was worrying about it at people, but due to circumstances (which are ultimately excuses as much as they are explanations), I've ... not really done a lot about it! I've been sick, I've been busy/tired, and right now I am moving I only have a week left AHHHHHHHHH I NEED TO PACK MORE--and managers at work have given out several warnings about our internet usage, which ... mostly pertains to download and streaming sites, sure, but it's kind of killed my enthusiasm for just happily threading as I've done at work before. They're only text-and-images, so they're not even taking up a whole lot of bandwidth, but ... I'm paranoid! I can handle a few threads, and slower than I would, but I don't tag as many posts at work as I used to, and probably won't until they resolve some of our bandwidth issues, just in case.

On the other hand, if it makes people feel like I'm alienating them or ignoring them, I have to apologize for that. I do want to improve this, because I like my game and I like my characters and I like playing with people! I'm just also not quite the spamwhore I used to be, which is ... probably a good thing, in some ways, and less-good in others. Bah. I will have to work on that, though, and possibly I'll do another "IF YOU WANT ME TO JUMP YOU PLEASE SAY SO" poll or something like that--maybe before I go on hiatus for the move, I'll do that one post I've been wanting to do. I should do it before Sharon's time runs out anyway, since right now I cannot afford to spend on LJ; once my finances stabilize again after the move, but not now, before things have happened.

I have also determined that--while I don't really like clothes shopping, or purchasing makeup, or shoes, or anything that I would wear, I really, really like domestic shopping. I like going to Target and IKEA and poking through furniture and stuff for the bathroom and kitchen supplies. I need new dishes when I move and I kept going :D at some of the sets I saw yesterday, while shopping. What am I becoming. Other than slowly poor, sob.

* Clean/pack --> THIS IS ONGOING; ascertain if I will be needing more boxes
* Switch internet/phone over to roommate's name
* ~~Call Comcast and make questioning noises especially re: the deal that vulchu has :|a~~
* Clean/pack (this can be on here TWICE)
* ~~Call parents to go over finalized new budget~~
* Get my address changed for the post office and the bank; keep an eye on balance to see when the deposit check goes through
* DON'T PANIC
* Breathe
* Possibly call at and rage at Qwest if internet is suiciding again tonight
* ~~Do my dishes at work~~

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I wouldn't take that to heart--I don't see how criticizing their availability for a fairly free-form fandom hobby is legitimate. RP is not your job, and your enjoyment of it does not start and stop for anons who want to play with/stalk your characters. Even people who RP have lives and the CFUD community has long been supportive of people having to adjust their schedules and character balance has never been a requirement.

If they're upset, in this instance it's their problem, not yours.

Well, part of it was that I felt instinctively knee-jerk "BUT I DON'T TRY TO DO THAT" when I saw it, which--usually, for me, is an indication that it's something I feel a little guilty about. XD; And I didn't want to go blah blah blah MY LIIIIIFE in either reply to the crit or the post I made to Hakuren's journal, because again--it's as much excuse as explanation! But if I can't whine a little about how crazy my life is in my own journal, I'm not sure where I can!

I do want to work on my balance and re-establishing some old relationships I've been letting stagnate, though, so I am going to work on that! ... once I've packed more. After I get home from work. Sob.

I agree with Zidane that critting you on being busy or tired or sick or whatever is completely unreasonable. What are you supposed to say? I'm sorry I have not been spending all my time on the internet for the sole purpose of your enjoyment? Yeesh.

I mean, I, too, feel bad when I don't play as much and let my characters' relationships slack, but I don't feel like that's something you should feel bad about, in a "I need to work on this or I'm a terrible player" sort of thing.

also moving takes so much time and energy, oh my gosh. GOOD LUCK.

Well, part of the problem, I think, is that I AM still on the internet a lot--like, I have time at work(ish), and I do log onto IRC at night. I'm just ... usually also distracted, or working on packing (sob, why do I have so much stuff) or just ... there and spaced out, like I was talking about earlier this month. I feel like it's something I can work on, and I think it's something I can improve that I've been letting slide; I think that is where I feel really bad about it. :|a SUCH IS LIFE.

I am really excited about this new place, though. :( OH RIGHT, and re: the cat that L's parents have, uh--when would be a good time for me to meet her? Because I don't want to say I'll take the cat when I know nothing about her, and I would rather get to know her first. :|b It wouldn't be until June at the very earliest, BUT I WILL HAVE FREE TIME AGAIN SOMEDAY--

Job comes first, especially when they're you know, paying you ;)

/telling you what you already know

I'm shocked LJ wasn't one of the sites on the hit list earlier this week, but hopefully it'll stay that way ;)

I like being paid! I like it a lot. XD

And yeah, I was really relieved that LJ wasn't on the list of "danger" sites, but I guess again--mostly text and images, and unless your flist has tons of posts with embedded YouTube videos and you're clicking them, it'll stay safeish? I AM STILL TRYING TO BE CAREFUL, THOUGH.

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I HAVE BEEN BUSY AND YET NOT-BUSY. Periods of being intensely busy and then just flopping like a ragdoll for an hour or two and then BUSY AGAIN seems to be the summary of my evenings this past .... month and a half ... but yeah. Part of my reaction is a kneejerk "I'm sorry but my offline life is taking major priority right now" but that also sounds a little lame. At least it does to me!

Someday I will evolve into a superior being that can read minds over the internet, and that will ... create more problems, but solve others at the same time. Hah. :|b

I think balance and 'play moar' is lame crit.

It's very hard to do anything about :( I CAN TRY, THOUGH

I can't comment much on the RP issues so I will merely offer hugs and sympathy.

I can, though, comment on enjoying looking at pretty things for the domicile> XD I'm somewhat the same way. I don't enjoy clothes/shoes shopping much, but get me looking at pretty things for the apartment/house and I'm all "Shiny! :D".

Good luck with the move!

I wouldn't worry too much. When your crit is 'PLAY MORE PLZ' it probably means you're doing stuff Right.

P-probably?! It just sort of bemuses me, in that--man, I have been very self-admittedly scarce lately, but I don't think I'm so inaccessible that if someone wanted to grab me, they couldn't find me fairly easily. :|a

SOMETHING I WILL PONDER AS I CONTEMPLATE THE AMOUNT OF WORLDLY POSSESSIONS I HAVE

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