nekokoban

Hello everyone on this LJ, I apologize for being basically AWOL for like ... monthssssss ... :|a Part of it is certainly because of Plurk, because micro-blogging is a lot easier and feels a lot more interactive than journals. ON THE OTHER HAND, journals are super-handy for when I have longer thought-out rants and not just the I AM HAVING OPINIONS AND I WILL TELL THEM!!

That is not to say I haven't been productive, though, oh no. I have been busy. I have been all over the place. I have done MANY THINGS. I make it sound like I am talking myself up, but man it sure hella felt like a lot of things.

BASICALLY IT WAS A LOT OF WRITING. To whit:

- I participated in springkink this time around (with eighteen fics, none of them late hell yeah \o/)

- I wrote a story for the next imaginarybeasts, which I have sent off

- I have written (together with harukami) the first two chapters of a supernatural harem series, lovesexgrave which won't see the main story posting until April, but we'll be posting RELATED STUFF every day this month. We're really excited about this, guys, these are characters we've had kicking around for at least three years, and they are FINALLY GOING SOMEWHERE. DOING SOMEONETHING. IT'S PRETTY COOL.

- I started (AND FINISHED) a project for Royal Archivist which by the way guys I am also still kind of ridic excited for. With luck THINGS AND STUFF will happen and it will be grand. I am hoping for grand. I will believe in the best!

All I have left is my bb_shousetsu piece, for which I generally know what I am doing, I just need to get started. If worst comes to it, I figure I will be able to just write on the plane when I fly back to Seattle tomorrow. The main reason I got the RA thing done is because I'm visiting my parents in Austin for the week. hrr hrr.

So basically this is fair warning that over the next couple of weeks my lj is going to be FLOODED WITH CONTENT. FANFIC CONTENT. I think the majority of you who friended me did so for my fic, though I admit that a lot of it is also for pairings/series/etc that I've never written before. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE ME.

We rang in 2011 by playing oldschool Sonic the Hedgehog and I had a chicken-and-cheese quesadilla with apple slices. Instead of champagne I had Martinelli's sparkling apple-cranberry cider, and Sammycat was the happiest because both rinkhals and I were sitting on the couch together and it meant he could drape on BOTH OF US AT THE SAME TIME!

If the superstition about "what you're doing at midnight is what you'll have a lot of for the next year," I think I am all right with that. :)

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HELLO FRIENDS!

This is an idea I have been kicking around for the better part of a year now, and who knows if it will actually go anywhere because lol life, the universe, and everything, but! I figured I would throw it out and see if there was any interest.

So I am one of the mods over at campfuckudie, and I know there a lot of you on my flist whom I met over there, so this is not exactly new news. *g* FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DON'T, it is a fairly large (and old-for-the-internet) panfandom RP in a pretty free-form jamjar setting. However, we have two spinoff comms, one for general AUs, and one for Mafia/Cry Wolf styled games; the only issue is that you have to have a current character in CFUD in order to actually participate! HOWEVER.

I have been tossing around the idea for a while now about making a game (holder arena for mini-games?) that would allow folks from all RPs to join. Just for a game, and not for longer than, say, a week (unless it's a Wolf game where the voting is very intense or whatever)--someone puts out a call for players for a Cry Wolf game, for example, and you could sign up with any RP character that you've got in your repoitoire, no matter what game they came from. (I'd probably put the cap on dressing rooms, though, since that would be more than I'd want to deal with right away.) It would mean that yeah, you'd potentially have, like, two or more of the same canon character in a game, but I think that would be kind of the horrible fun of it. :B

The game would be strictly AU to all RPs that the characters came from--it'd be a very much, "I am trusting you to talk to the mods of your games about what you can and cannot bring back," since there would sometimes be IC prizes and IC damage, and of course, free resets to anyone who sustained damage before they go back to their own games. Playing in a mini-game would not preclude playing the character at their normal game, of course, if such a character is your primary or involved in something else at the time.

The setting I have in mine is a carnival (the same one that I ran an event with for CFUD a while ago), which means that other people could get involved in creating a carnival/circus character to run a particular style of game (it wouldn't be like, so I have a Clown and he runs x kind of game and y kind of game and z kind of game--the Clown would run maybe the Cry Wolf games, or the Fortune-Teller would run a kill-or-be-killed game, that sort of thing). There would be no play in the setting when there isn't a game going on, since the Carnival appears and disappears at random and isn't really meant to be a Huge And Deep Mystery to why it exists--it just does, and the Ringmaster is always looking for new recruits to keep for himself.

SO IDK IDK I have no idea if there would even be interest in this, or if it's doable, or even what the basic rules would be, I am just throwing it out there.

And now I am running off to leave work so YAY any questions/concerns/gtfo terra you're crazy may go here.

ETA Further thought before I forget it--

There would be a "day" carnival and a "night" carnival, so part of the game invitations would involve specifying what half you were setting it in; "day" games would be the sort of fun happy fluffy silly whatever games where you make friends and influence people!! or whatever, and the "night" carnival would be death/killing/mental trauma games. :|a The casts would be different for the day and the night games, and two or more circus members could in fact team up to complicate things.

HOORAY.

Because putting it public makes it real and so I can't wuss out!!

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WHAT I SPENT MY WEEKEND DOING.

Well, that's a slight exaggeration, since I also managed to get grocery shopping done, do the laundry AND the dishes, cook from-scratch lasagna, finally buy closed-toe shoes, and still get like ~7.5 hours of sleep a night (I stayed UP really late and slept really late, and boy did that make the cats happy this morning). BUT MOSTLY I DID THIS and nnnnnngh I am just so happy it's done. (Poor rinkhals has had to deal with me whining whenever something was missed/skipped/gone/I hated everything.)

All of the fic is moved over to a Wordpress account hosted off my server, which (in theory) will make it easier for me to update in the future, as well as allowed me to have a tagging/categorization system. I've split up original fiction versus fanfic, and I have some ~plans~ that may or may not get put into fruition by the end of the year, depending on motivation and the guts to actually do it. There is also a new layout for the site in general, as well as one that has the same colorscheme, but not any fandom-related images, for the original side. Hrrr. :B Originally I'd wanted to use a di(e)ce image, but then the baby dragon was there and I was like OH WHY NOT, HE'S CUTE.

Anyway, blah blah blah, IF THERE ARE BROKEN LINKS, TELL ME AND I WILL GET TO THEM! oh my god guys it's been three years since I updated my website, this is crazyyyyyyyyyyyy. \o_O/

So, the local theater is doing a production of Fiddler on the Roof! And now TV commercials have been on TV for it. And every time I see it, I am overcome with this brief moment of /)_(\ SOME PEOPLE THINK IT'S FUNNY. Some people are also horrible and mean to me. :'(

The beginning of this tale was a good coughcoughcough years ago, when I was about six years old. My father had just finished watching our VHS copy of the Fiddler on the Roof, and he asked me if I would rewind it and put the tape away for him! SO I DID. And as I turned off the VCR--we had one of those really old-fashioned ones, where it returned to whatever channel it was on previously when you turned the VCR off. I don't know WHAT CHANNEL IT WAS, or even what movie--I suspect it was the first Alien or some sort of horror movie, where the lighting was dark and smokey and there were horrible chittering noises and people generally being terrified. Hmm.

SOMEHOW, IN MY TINY SIX YEAR OLD MIND, I CONFLATED THE TWO. So for years, I was absolutely terrified of the production and everything that had to do with it. I thought that the Fiddler stood on roofs and was a man-eating alien who shot people with his fiddle and then devoured their souls. :( Mom would suggest watching it and I'd be like AHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOO ;A; and I would go hide in my room with the door closed. Even as I got older and developed a taste for horror hmmmmmm, I just. Could never bring myself to even look it up because I was so convinced that the Fiddler was going to somehow kill me as I slept or something, Idk.

(I should also mention that I grew up in Austin, so it is entirely possible that I simply combined Aliens and the University Tower Shootings with the Fiddler on the Roof in some bizarre and absolutely horrible crossover that should never happen for real outside of my brain EVER.)

I didn't actually know it was a musical till my senior year of high school, when Dad asked me to make him a mix CD and one of the songs he had me download was from Fiddler on the Roof. ("Sunrise, Sunset," which is THE SONG my parents play in the car EVERY YEAR when they pick me up from the airport for my annual visit.) And I didn't know what the story was about until a few years after that, and then it was like "... whoa ..."

That is how Terra learned NOT to be terrified of Fiddler on the Roof.

PS still not going to see it, so vulchu and katmaxwell may stop laughing at me right now, those horrible people. :(

PPS The n key of my laptop is trying to die horribly. Don't ask how many times I've had to go back and correct typos in this post; IF I MAKE A MISSING-N COMMENT, PLEASE FORGIVE ME.

You know, occasionally I realize that sometimes I wish I was--silly enough, or pretentious enough, or teenager enough--to do some of those things that I really want to do, and then talk myself out of. :|a Mostly this involves JOURNAL POSTS THAT ARE ONLY LYRICS!! BECAUSE THEY REALLY HAVE REAL MEANINGS GUYS!! even when a lot of the time it's just because I really like a particular line or whatever. \o_O/ I suppose that's why I have twitter, but there's only so often you can do that, too, before someone decides to take a mallet to your virtual kneecaps.

[UNPOPULAR OPINION] Okay so also a part of me is kind of irritated at the condescending "oh isn't that cute" attitude I sometimes get from my friends for liking singing robots when they're going mad over Lady GaGa. Who I don't listen to, so I cannot judge, but dude, some of the stuff I've heard off nicodouga would rival any of the pro stuff I've heard, too, and I am vaguely :\ over people cooing over how crazy/bizarre/talented/etc their pop stars are, but then are like "oh, you" if mine even get mentioned. Just because the vocals sometimes come from a synthesized program doesn't mean that the whole thing was computer-generated, and gods and fishes know there are real live human covers of robot songs that are more popular in the ratings than the original. I think this is part of why I feel so apathetic to trying to listen to Lady Gaga--I understand she's actually really good, but I'd rather give my love and attention to my "silly" singing robot fandom, which I don't think is always as silly as people act. My irritation, let me punch someone in the face with it, even if it's just myself. [/UNPOPULAR OPINION]*

Though on the musical note, I need to remember to see if there's an mp3 available of the chorus cover of Butter-fly I found last night, because damn, that was a nostalgic kick and a half. DIGIMON, THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A SOFT SPOT IN MY HEART FOR YOU!

I didn't get any writing done yesterday, but man, I was so incredibly dead after a ~DAY~ that really, the fact that I managed to make all the phone calls I had to in order to kickstart repairs and fixing things that need it outside of work is an incredible achievment. CFUD people, I will pick up the chorus post tonight. /o\ THOUGH RELATEDLY, after reading this (courtesy of ysadrel and is an amazing read even for someone who doesn't know WoW, like yours truly), I really want to just. Do a text-based adventure thing and see how well I can do when I'm making things up on the fly. That's actually how I do a lot of creative things, honestly; I have learned that I cannot handle outlines that well, because then I get bored and I'm like BUT I ALREADY WROTE IT! \o_O/ and want to move on. Sob. XD Part of me just wants to make a journal post that is like, YOU WAKE UP HERE, WHERE DO YOU GO FROM THERE. Like every RP ever, only I'd want to do it with those forums where people are just giving (occasionally ridiculous) input and trying to roll with that. It seems like it'd be fun, but I don't know that people would actually be interested in it. WHY CAN'T I GET THE HANG OF FORUMS! [fistshake]

\o_O/ is still my favoritest emoticon ever.

THE END.

* PS: the UNPOPULAR OPINION is not actually meant to specifically call out people. The Vocaloid vs Lady Gaga thing is obviously the current example in my life, but it's really just an example of something that keeps happening. \o_O/ It's part of why I am really starting to hate when people say "but you're so cute!" to/about me, because I honestly feel like I'm not being taken seriously, and it drives me up the wall! SO. While I don't mind being silly and off the wall, I'd like to be taken seriously (and the things I like as a reflection of "hey, I like this unironically") as well.

Case in point: I normally log into work as soon as I get in and my computer is booted up! TODAY, FOR SOME REASON, I DID NOT! And as a result it was something like 9:30 (a good forty minutes after I'm in at work) and I happen to rewindow in my tabs--and oh! Hey! GUESS WHAT I HAD NOT DONE. And we can't edit our time cards, a manager has to do that, and mine's in training today--so I shoot off a quick email and am like fffff, self, you're brilliant. /o\ Luckily, I guess she had a break where she could access her email, so she fixed it for me, but. Man. :( I have never made that mistake ever, and hopefully won't make it again. ;o;

In other news, I think I have figured out what it is that always bothers me so much, the first few times I try to write fic for a new fandom: I am so bad at figuring out where to set things. :( I mean, original fiction, it's cool! It's my world and my characters, I can handwave and say it happened in the year 200X and adjust things to suit my tastes. BUT IN FANFIC! Man, I think recently I have been sort of self-conscious about writing character pieces set in the middle of a scene, which is sad, because that is something I think I am good at! It is a style and a pacing and a thingy that I am good at see how eloquent I am, durhurr! But. I sort of feel like I want to expand, and do more things that have--plots? Do stuff that stands a bit more independantly alone? BUT THEN WHERE IS PLACE. Once I'm more comfortable in a fandom, it's relatively easy to handwave places, especially when the canon itself allows for openings--but even then, it takes me a bit to get adjusted.

It's weird, because in some cases it is a matter of the character voices or the style of the narrative or any number of things--but I think it ultimately boils down to "where do I put this? does it happen before X, after Y, or can I appropriately handwave it off at Z? WHAT AM I EVEN DOING." Then there's the whole "I want to write X, but I'm pretty sure it would only have the chance to happen BEFORE the series began, but we don't have enough backstory for me to really have anything to go with, just a gut feeling and niggling inspiration." I AM LOOKING AT YOU, AYANAMI/LAB.

While I'm at it, fffff I need to start working on pacing more. Dear self, stop skipping ahead and not fleshing things out; just because things are laid out in detail in your head does not mean that the people reading can fill in the gaps. :(

NaNo wordcount stands at roughly 6050, which I am satisfied with thus far. Write or Die is my glorious, glorious friend. Especially the desktop version, where my WPM is a lot more dismal than my general typing WPM, but is still cool to look at! NEXT GOAL IS TO GET IT UP TO AT LEAST 40.

Also what is with this gorgeous, gorgeous weather we've had lately. PLEASE TO BE STAYING THIS WAY, SEATTLE! You can rain at night and be beautiful in the day, I am totally fine with this.

Also also x2: I have this sudden urge for drama CDs with Fukuyama Jun in them. I have the 07-Ghost ones, but I have no BL ones and then NOTHING ELSE. This is a tragedy! If anyone has others, I hope they will have pity on me and share. :(

What is this. I don't even.

I BLAME FLOOR.

Also, semi-context.

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THIS IS TONIGHT'S PROJECT, GUYS!!1

Give me a fandom, any fandom (well, one that I know/write for) and I will write a scene from a really ridiculous Hetalia crossover* with it. You may specify your country. :'(

also make halcyonjazz stop smiling at me, I can sense her from here.

* Ridiculous especially in the way of "oh ha ha ha why would ANYONE ever want to cross THAT?" only because it's me and I fail at really anything funny, it will attempt to be a SERIOUS FIC! Sob.