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QUICK MONTHLY SUMMARY:

* Got a plurk! Promptly forgot Twitter existed. Sorry, y'all. :B I do a lot of microblogging there and am rather enamored.

* Got bishopped over at campfuckudie! Have hit my personal limit for RP and feel pretty good about having no other desires for it ever. Yeay.

* Came to a personal revelation about myself (in fact, I am a super-contrary person despite having always thought of myself as a very "whatevs |D" type, in that 9.999 times out of 10, the harder you push something at me, the more I'm just like :\a that's nice :\a APPARENTLY I HAVE TO BE SUBTLY COURTED, and who wants to waste that much time \o/) and came to peace with it. Everything works out in the end.

* An actually fairly accurate representation of myself, since they didn't have any necklaces that actually look like the one I wear.

* I feel like I'm slowly forgetting how to write fanfic. :|a I still want to, a lot, but it all keeps getting done in short bursts and stops, whereas my original fiction is like \:D/ derp derp. I still can't write novels worth anything, but short stories and novella-esque lengths seem to be great for me.

( Now I am going to talk about MONEY and STUFF and cutting it because lol. )

After all that tl;dr I have determined I really want to write fusion fandom fic, when I want to write fic, but I'm not sure if I even have a direction after that, except maybe I want to write all the diece things and only two other people on LJ care. :B I'M SORRY EVERYONE WHO EXPECTED BETTER OF THIS JOURNAL, PROBABLY YOU SHOULD ABANDON SHIP NOW.

THE GOOD: Weeeee are pretty much clear to go! Home inspection was done last night, and most of it was fairly boring (though really, for something like this, it's very much a "no news is good news" thing). There are a few issues that need to be taken care of, probably sooner than later--we're going to negotiate for either credit back OR they'll do it themselves. I-is it ridiculous of me when I was like "actually, it could be kind of fun to learn how to do it myself," I GUESS THIS MEANS I REALLY AM READY FOR HOME OWNERSHIP?? ps enough_space and vulchu even if you guys don't help I will expect you to keep me company and be my cheering squad. :B

THE BAD: Iiiiiii forgot to completely budget for this (the actual inspection itself, which, DUH I R BRILL, costs money). :B IT IS NOT A HUGE DEVASTATING DIFFERENCE and I'm already ballparking my numbers on the super-high end, but it pretty much means that until I get this figured out and accomodated for, I have to declare hiatus for anything irl that involves money. :( So this involves even eating/ordering out, because until I actually know exactly my numbers and where things are coming from, and where that extra money needs to come from (whether from my high ballparks or from something else), I should not be spending anything. I CAN STILL HANG OUT AND LIKE, WATCH TV OR GO WINDOW SHOPPING OR WHATEVER! In fact, at this point, I don't really have any major house-related things to do; we're in pending and until the closing date (June 7th) I AM FREE. Sob. Love me.

THE AHHHHHH: No, the \o_O/?!?!?! \o/!! feeling hasn't really worn off yet, gosh this is super-exciting. ONE STEP CLOSER TO PLAYING A GROWN UP IN THE REAL WORLD. And today I am wearing a shirt with rainbow butterflies in it and am seriously considering the merits of wearing my hair in pigtails while it's in that medium-ish length stage. I think this may be one of the few times I could pull it off, y/n? :|a



P.S. In epic battle of Prinny vs Dalek, who wins?

This is a tea morning, I think, once I finish breakfast. +_+ Normally I don't require caffeine in the mornings, but very little sleep Saturday + interrupted sleep Sunday and Monday nights (courtesy of my cat) means I am a bit on the woozy-mumbly side. I can't even get mad at Merlin, because the way he disturbs me is--instead of pawing at my head or sitting on me (though he DOES walk on me and his bony little paws hurt sometimes), whenever I'm lying on my side, he curls up right next to my head and starts purring. Which wakes me up, but he's so cute and fluffy and happy, I can't actually yell at him or push him off for that. 8( I know I've commented a lot on his babyvoice, and how he has a much quieter purr than other cats I know--but he purrs louder when it's just the two of us anyway, and when it's right next to your ear, that is plenty loud.

Sob, but I have been very tired lately--I keep finding myself making the most idiotic mistakes at work (I've gotten back revisions that are like "er, we asked for abc, not xyz" and I'm like #@*&^%%^*#*(!@*&%), and when I was talking to enough_space last night, I realized I have not taken a proper holiday-holiday since possibly January. Nearly all--IF NOT ALL--the company-provided days off I have been working overtime, and I took only one day off for moving as opposed to two like I'd originally intended and ahhhhhhhhhhhhh my brain, she is frizzling. I think I need a proper three-day weekend/mental health day, and apparently commuter services aren't running this Monday, SO SCORE. \m/ HOLIDAY! I am not working emergency support that day, I am not working emergency support that day, SOMEONE KICK ME IN THE HEAD IF I TRY TO VOLUNTEER FOR EMERGENCY SUPPORT THAT DAY.

You know, my life is actually a lot more eventful than I sometimes make it sound--every weekend for the past month or so has been filled with DOING STUFF AND SEEING PEOPLE! but I forget to blog about it the day-of, and then afterwards, I am like "... it's not really 'talking about your day' if it was a day two weeks ago." I hang out, I watch movies, I'm replaying Odin Sphere (instead of like the fifty million unstarted games I have waiting for me), MY CAT IS ADORABLE, carry on.

However, after eight years, I have finally gone to the Seattle Aquarium, thanks to an impulse suggestion by rivendellrose. IT WAS AWESOME GUYS. (I took a lot of very amateur but very earnest photos, as evidenced by the school of salmon in my last post. IS IT JUST ME, OR IS IT HEART-SHAPED! I think I will take it as a sign that I am doing things in the right spirit, at least.) I WANT TO GO AGAIN, if hopefully this time to see the giant octopus when she's not hiding under a rock.

NOW BACK TO WORK. [inserts interesting hook for comments here]


eta: ... I forgot my water bottle. :( WILL I WITHER AWAY FROM DEHYDRATION? STAY TUNED. Or not, I still have my Starbucks cup.

I have almost perfected katharon's keyboard smash!11

Sob, tonight is COUNTDOWN, and of course now I'm borrowing trouble for myself, worrying that things won't be finished in time, that I'll regret moving on my own, a thousand and one things that COULD GO WRONG! between now and tomorrow, when I will theoretically be unpacking. (I say theoretically because given my energy levels + how much sleep I don't plan on getting tonight, I could very well just be passed out. We'll have to see!) I am anxious and a little excited, and a lot AHHHHHH what is this AHHHHH about everything. Sob, I've gotten to the panic point of "do I have enough boxes? I don't have enough boxes! what am I doing, how am I going to transport myself tomorrow since I don't have a car do I have to call a taxi AHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsob"

I almost wish I'd taken Monday off too, but I can't afford to do that right now. A-at least there WILL be a holiday coming up, and maybe if I'm lucky my computer will work with my new internet and I could take a couple of working-from-home days. That'd be kind of nice; I'd like to get used to my new living space. Really I'm just antsy now; everything is nearly done, and I have gotten to the point that I want it completely done. And I've hit the late-afternoon lethargy, where it is a chore to keep my eyes open and my typing coherent. :x Since the internet won't be set up in my new place until Sunday, I really plan on catching up on sleep this weekend, sob. And if I miss people I will-- go find a cafe or something with my laptop and be like GUYS GUYS LOVE ME I MISS YOU.

Nnngh, the gorgeous day actually isn't helping, because when I went out during lunch, I just wanted to curl up and nap. There is a distinct trend in my thoughts these days, which seem to follow the pattern of PACK-PANIC-SLEEPY-BAWWWW because I feel like I am missing cool stuff and while I think I will be happy once I move and have everything settled and can restart my schedule, I ... really hate the upheaval between the calm periods. My mom once accused me of only ever taking the easy way out of things--which I don't think is entirely true. I prefer easy smooth transitions and if there's going to be excitement I'd like to at least be rested for it, heh.

Still, all things aside, I think this could be entirely much worse. I'm going to allow myself to be okay with this--though I will be more okay when I've moved and everything is settled. And I'll be going into radio silence till the internet's set up at my new apartment, which will hopefully be sooner than later; I'm a little excited to actually get cable TV again. :|a (Hilariously, I think I've been updating this journal more now while I panic about offline stuff. IRONYYYYYY.)

--oh right, I need to work on springkink, too. Maybe a break will be a good thing. :|a

I'll see you guys soon. ♥

Item first: NEW APARTMENT GET. \m/ Well, unless for some reason the credit and background checks don't come through--which would surprise me very much, since I live one of the most boring lives in the history of ever. But the deposit is paid and they've taken it off the market and I'm happy. Well, okay, I'm also a tiny bit superstitious since the place opened up because the last guy living there lost his job and had to break his lease. Send me good luck vibes, guys. Sob!

The rent is a bit higher than I would've wanted--and yet, still within the limits I set for myself!--in a nice neighborhood with a well-reviewed building and 95/100 on Walker's Paradise. (And it should be higher, since looking at the list, there are places I saw walking there that aren't on the maps. So yeah. \m/) It has everything I specified wanting in an apartment, plus the view is really nice. :D I also ran into ex-coworker JP, who was one of my favorites, while walking to the bus stop--which was hilarious because I was on the phone with my mom and had to stop to go !!!!!!! and hug him.

Item second: WHO WANTS MY CELLPHONE NUMBER THAT HASN'T GOTTEN IT YET poke me and I will send it to youuuuuuuu. |D

Item third: Man, do I need to clean. But P4. But cleaning! But P4.

Item fourth: I went and saw the Star Trek movie last night! Unlike a lot of my friends (and my parents, haha), I was not a Trekkie when I was younger; it was definitely my parents' show (and Mom more than Dad), though I hung around to watch bits and pieces of it whenever it was on TV. I enjoyed myself a lot more than I was honestly expecting, actually! For someone whose Trek knowledge mainly consists of the parts that have sunk into the collective social consciousness, it was vastly entertaining. I have also decided I must see Angels and Demons for Ewan McGregor as a priest. :B

Item fifth: It is gorgeous today. Not too cool, not too warm, sunny, and no crazy religious people with signs around the farmer's market. I ran into the parrot man in Pike Place Market, I got a week's worth of groceries for under $30, and now I have a free afternoon where I should be packing or cleaning, but I am going to indulge and play P4 instead. \m/

Operation: Turnaround is possibly working! YAY.

So today, I feel pretty accomplished! I bussed to downtown to check out the apartment building I want to move into, and have come away pretty satisfied. I scoped out the neighborhood a tiny bit, checked the location of bus stops, and got a mini-tour of the place, and I am excited. \o/ For all that I am getting the "worse" view, from what I could see, my view will be pretty fantastic. (I love cityscapes at night. In the daytime I like looking at the countryside and greenery and mountains and all, but at night all the lights and movement of a city just fascinate me. I was happy with what I saw. :D) Plus, they allow dogs (up to eighty pounds!) and--okay, I know that the majority of my flist and friends are catpeople, and I love cats too! But damn if the wide-eyed six year old in me is so excited by the possibility of HAVING A DOG. I may not get one! BUT THE POSSIBILITY. I have calculated and recalculated my budget over a dozen times, and I'm excited. \o/

HOWEVER, there was an. Interesting. Part of my day. While waiting at the bus stop, a woman approaches me and asks me first when the bus will arrive, and then the time. I tell her both, and she is excited, then proceeds to tell me how she "doesn't like walking down that way" (down the street). Now, granted, there are a few kind of sketchy blocks down from my apartment, but normally the Ave rats only show up late afternoon through the night--on a bright and beautiful Saturday morning, there's not really anything uncomfortable about walking that way. Confused, I ask if she means the farmer's market.

"Oh, I don't like that either," she says. "But there's this lady and she's, like, handing out photos and stuff. And I dunno, I'm not saying this right ((she would repeat that phrase many times)) but it's like, witchcraft and stuff. They're witches. She's trying to get you to touch the pictures, and then like, she'll do [mumblemumblemumble more about witchraft Idk]."

AND THERE'S ME, going "... I-I don't think it's witchcraft--"

To which she very seriously tells me WITCHES ARE EVERYWHERE. 8| And then falls silent. I am hopeful that she will leave me alone now, and continue waiting for the bus, BUT NO! A minute later she asks me what I think of witchcraft. I tell her I think it's a silly outdated notion perpetrated by people who needed an excuse to persecute anyone they didn't like*, and she tells me how WITCHCRAFT IS A TOOL OF SATAN, EVERY WITCH IS SATANIC, YOU BELIEVE IN SATAN DON'T YOU! And lectures me about how I need to accept the Lord Jesus Christ into my heart and soul because otherwise Satan will create a weapon to be used against me, and how SHE HAS JESUS IN HER HEART AND WITHOUT HIM SHE IS NOTHIIIIIING and how if you don't believe in God you WILL go to Hell, it's proven in the Bible.

Etc.

Etc.

Etc.

It was only ten minutes, but sob. SOB!

Then I went to the apartment, was all \o/ about it, got a nice lunch and walked around Pike Place Market to grab some groceries, and came home. HOWEVER--in front of the entrance to the farmer's market, there are people with picket signs about ACCEPT JESUS CHRIST YOUR LORD AND SAVIOR and REPENT NOW, SINNERS and suchlike, parading in front of the entrance. And from the looks of things, they'd trapped all the people who were waiting for the light. (The farmer's market in my neighborhood is held on Saturdays, 9-2, in a large parking lot, so there's a crosswalk right at the entrance.) And the whole thing bemused me entirely because they'd so not been there any other time I've gone by--it's always, like, the Real Change people, or people trying to get you to vote for various green initiatives. It was very surreal.

IN CONCLUSION, new apartment looks super-snazzy, though I do not think I will be able to take my coffee table AND the dining table/chairs my parents got. :( I will need to examine the layouts againnnnn, but. At the same time, GOSH am I excited. \o/ And picketing people will forever and always bemuse me.

So today I rolled out of bed at my normal 7:15 and looked out the window. The sky was this kind of dull orange-brown-gray, and it was snowing pretty heavily. (I mean it, even; these were big fat flakes coming down at a healthy clip.) THUS, VERY HOPEFUL, I called my office's snow closure line ... and the automated voice said the office was still open. Bawwwwwwww. :'( But I take public transit and I live in a fairly clear/open area (seriously, it takes forever before they'll close anything around the school down), so I bundled up and trudged to my bus stop.

And I waited.

And I waited.

And at abouuuuut 8:10, rivendellrose shows up at the bus stop AND I AM STILL THERE. My bus is supposed to come around 7:48, and yet I am still there, hunkered like some fat unusual bird, and watching as the snow has entirely covered my previous footsteps. The one bus that's been by says that a lot of buses were caught up on Olive, which is downtownish.

So we wait.

And we wait.

And finally, at 8:48, an hour after my bus SHOULD have arrived and fifteen minutes after my shift is supposed to start, we call our manager.

"Oh," he says, "I tried to call you guys before. They decided to close the office after all."

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So we went our separate ways back to our apartments (I dropped by the grocery store to get food and juice uhuhuhu pineapple orange) and then I took out the trash and I WENT BACK TO SLEEP.

Now I'm going to make lunch and it is still snowing. I've FINISHED MY YULETIDE FIC \o/ and life is warm, which is about as awesome as "good."

♥

I could be really depressing and doom and gloom about certain things (which basically you'd only know about if you know me irl and have heard me bring it up/are my roommate and listened to me spazz on the phone at my parents for the better part of an hour, hahaha. I COULD. But Doom hasn't happened yet, I have alternatives I can look into ... and really, I'm okay. I am also just a worrier with a tendency towards the paranoid who bottles it in -- I AM TRYING TO BE BETTER ABOUT THAT. HENCE THE CALL TO MY PARENTS. (Sometimes I worry that my mom misses me more than she says, because she gets very :( if we don't talk at least twice a week, even if it's only five minutes where I confirm that I am still, in fact, alive, but at the same time she is apparently making friends with ladies in the neighborhood! THEY HAVE A GARDENING CLUB GUYS, i-it's so cute. She was bragging about her lettuces and her lemons and telling me how she gave them to people and got stuff back and. ♥)

Instead I will note (in a kind of orz what) way about how my recent back problems have taken what should be a ten-minute walk to something like twenty, and that's just sad. It's less my back now and more my hips, which I had been warned about, but sheesh. I am entirely too young to be this old. :'( I bought one of those back pillow thingits at Walgreens the other day, and it seems to be helping! Especially when I lean back. I think this office chair was designed for someone taller, because it leans back a lot farther than I like and if I sit properly for back posture my toes pretty much just touch the ground.

Or I could gripe about how the (writing) force is still not with me, and this grieves me terrible. :\ I KEEP TRYING. I KEEP ... NOT MAKING IT. I have a word document that's full of linebreaks and two-line stand-alone paragraphs that make very little sense. I have fantastic images but nothing that connects them together. It saddens me. I DID MANAGE TO FINISH A STORY FOR imaginarybeasts and I signed up for Yuletide s-so I am taking some heart from that.

... I should write my Yuletide author letter ... I'll do that this weekend.

Also, I like this song more than I really should. It's all -- not really my normal thing (I heard it described as militant-sounding? it fits), but it's been stuck in my head for going on two weeks now, so hopefully someone else will share my pain.

Uhhhh, what else. Man, why am I so boring. I guess if anyone wants me to love on them, they should comment on this post! And because I'm bad at keeping up with this meme on my flist, you can tell me if you love me, too.

OR DON'T LOVE ME, IN INTEREST OF ALL FAIRNESS man, I give up on interesting, I'm going and getting lunch.

HELLO LIVEJOURNAL

For the record, I'm not dead, though gods and fishes know I felt dead at the beginning of the week (o winter, and the illnesses you bring unto everyone), and that has sort of ... thrown me off all week, so that I now exist in this peculiar floaty place of ENERGY and DEAD and switch between the two ... oh, about every. Five minutes. Or something. Sigh.

IN SPITE ALL OF THAT, October has already been an excellent month for me.

* I got to see Great Big Sea in concert! Two sets, two encores, omg favorite band ever. ;__; ♥ I used to not get the appeal of live recordings, though that has certainly changed over the years -- but there are somethings that are still "you had to have been there" for it to really gel. (That, and live recording CDs rarely have the funny exchanges from the band. "I'm attracted to the darkness, you know." "...." "That's why we're into each other." "... Oh. Oh, yeah. Right!")

* Delicious delicious mussels. I want mussels again. :( I was talking to people about seafood last night and now it's like. I want to have a bowl of mussels all to myself and some really nice bread to go with it. ♥_♥

* On the other hand, THERE ARE PANCAKES IN THE BREAK ROOM THIS MORNING and I am going to get a few after I post this. Mmmmmmpancakes.

* RP has been amazingly fun. |D

* Tomorrow I am going to CANADA to harass harukami and mackzazzle for my birthday/Canadian Thanksgiving weekend. And that is the kickstart for a WHOLE WEEK OFF WORK that is my present to myself. \o/ It will include lots of sleeping, procrastinating, and reading all those things I keep telling people I would, and then ... never get around to ...

* I HAS NEW CLOTHES. A-after over ... uh ...

Actually, now that I think about it, I'm not sure I ever went on a concentrated "my mission objective is getting new clothes" trip ... ever. In my entire life.

BUT YOU KNOW, I went clothes shopping at thrift stores last weekend and managed to really build up my wardrobe and spend less than $200 on the whole shebang. |D Still no idea what I'm doing for Halloween! I might pull a Wednesday Adams and just go as a homicidal sociopath that looks like an ordinary person. :(

* IT'S FRIDAY. Do you know how magical that is? Friday. F r i d a y. ♥

* Possibly I had more to say. I can always add to this list later. |D

HAPPY -- DAY, PEOPLE. IT'S A DAY. THAT'S ACTUALLY A GOOD THING.

AHHHHHHHHHHHH new computer at work is SHINY AND STUFF but where did all my work-related bookmarks go ;o; also trying to remember how to set it up the dual monitors the way I liked them ;o;

AHHHHHHHHHHHH I only remember the password for my LJ and NOT MY EMAIL. \o/

AHHHHHHHHHHHH I feel like crap (damn you, weather changes! why must you hurt me so!) and only came in so I could GET said new computer

AHHHHHHHHHHHH when did it suddenly get cold! It's ridiculous, living where I do, but the first day it gets really cold it's like my body shuts down. EFF YOU, WORLD, it says. SOB, I say.

BUT!

My manager is awesome and understanding and is letting me bow out early today so I can go home and faceplant for a few extra hours. If I don't fall asleep on the bus and miss my stop.

That said, I've finished the three tasks I did pick up three, that's so sad, that's like NOTHING, I usually average anywhere from sixteen to twenty ;o; and now I am going to DRAG MYSELF OFF. AND SLEEP. AND FIGURE OUT THIS WHOLE PASSWORD FIASCO.

\o/