On the evolution of blogging

[[Prefacing notes: I believe my domain--and thus, my regular e-mail--are working again. If they're not, kick me in the head and I'll go yell at my provider. XD;

calintz, the artbook came today! ♥♥♥♥♥ And it makes me very very happy, thank you again SO MUCH. Mmmm, artebookage. >D

And for you people who are unimpressed with my talks about life and random things, you people who friended me for fic, I'll be pathetic and drop a reminder: Youthful Flowers, In Spring, my first Naruto fic. Woo. XD]]

Or not, really, but that's what I was thinking about, at any rate, so that's what I'm stuck with, unless I make some brilliant deductive leap from A to X and skip everything in between. XD

It's interesting; I used to blog daily, about the most inane things. I'd toss in little self-references to school friends I hung out with and knew read my blog, I'd wax poetical on some small lunch quote or reference--I just talked a whole helluva frickin' lot. And actually, I still do, just to a less broad audience now, considering of my buddylist, I only talk to about three people nightly. XD More to the point, I nattered on like the online journal was just a daily one, and there are likely very embarrassing admissions/confessions in my old archive, if only I had the time and attention span to look. *snrks*

A little later on--maybe a year or so after, I still blogged daily, but it became more of a "what am I thinking? what am I feeling?" thing, rather than a list of my daily events. I'd still talk about them, and mention anything that really stuck out in my memory--but somewhere along the way, I picked up the impression that if I blogged, I should at least try to say something, even if it meant my post was that much shorter, than go on endlessly about nothing. So while I interspersed anecdotes about myself and my life, I also started using my blog as somethng of a forum. That is to say, there weren't many people (I think) coming by to read my entries, and probably fewer still who commented--but I still used that as a place where I could work out, at least in rambling text, how I thought/felt about things--writing, friendships, love, and the whole bizarrely interesting sociology of fandom. (Sometimes, I think, if I can't become a writer, I'll moonlight as some crazy quack psychologist, looking into all different fandoms and the dynamics of how people interact, the "society of nice" and the elitism, the supposed wars that go on beneath the surface, and how it applies to general trends observed in everyday society, like the workplace or the school. [grins])

Er, but I digress.

Somewhere along halfway through my sophmore year, I just ... stopped. It wasn't that I didn't have things to still talk about, or relate, even if it was only to a limited audience--I think it was time problems, and the stresses of that. I enjoy the sciences, but given the personality I have, it can be terribly hard for me to keep a cool perspective when push comes to shove. XD;;;;; I think I'm better than I was, but I still have friends that give me the Long-Suffering I Told You So treatment whenever I mention my grades. *snrks*

Now, especially as summer has begun ... I spend most of my days, honestly, as a semi-hermit. There's a variety of reasons for this--people are busy, or I'm in antisocial mode (I freely admit that I'm still on my uber-bizarre spring schedule, in which I got maybe six hours of sleep a night and was alternately HYPERSOCIAL! and apathetically "meh, sleepy"). I do a lot of writing, I poke around Japanese fanart sites and horribly abuse the jBrowse toolbar I've downloaded (on the plus side, I think I've learned at least twenty new kanji from it and the FMA fandom alone XD), and I play copious amounts of Solitaire, usually when WinAmp comes up with something I want to sing along with and I can't be distracted from either sets of words--sung and written. XD;;;;;;

(Seriously, I wonder if anyone else has done this--been on the phone, or singing, or *something*, and accidentally mixed up the two different mediums. I've said things I was typing, or typed things I was saying, which totally throws the conversation into disarray, let me tell you. XD)

Still, in a situation like this, I should ideally (at least, in my head) be blogging more. I AM COLLEGE STUDENT HURRH HURRH, part of the future of the nation, blah blah blah. I mean, hell, I am Young Adult--it should be difficult to get me to shut up. And now I've got plenty of time to write about what I'm thinking, what I'm considering--no stresses, no distractions, and it's still at least another month before I should even start expecting to see my housing info come in and find out who my new roommate'll be. I have organic chemistry to review, but it's not pressing, and I've had several people tell me the only thing I need to know from my earlier quarters before I take 239 are the naming conventions.

I just ... don't. I remember reading somewhere that, when you do something consecutively for thirty days, then it becomes a "habit" and you no longer think of it. In that case, I've gotten into the habit of not blogging, for all my insistences that I would, by gods and fishes, start blogging regularly again. So much for that, wot? [wry]

In a way, this is me trying to get back into the blogging habit--because when I think about it, I do miss having a place where I could natter about my day (which I still could do, on the days I do things)--a place where I could let out little stresses so I don't scare friends by turning into some soppy weeping mess on them. XD And if that happens, I'll probably relagate that to the regular blog--there are so freaking many people on LJ, and I think most of you folks out there didn't friend me for my sparkling wit and scintillating conversation skills, but rather, what paltry dry fic I occasionally throw out. XD

Then again, knowing me, I'll post something in LJ that will get a discussion-thread going, and I'll be so happy for that, that I'll continue spamming my poor flist with things, in the hopes that I'll find that magical subject again that gets people going. Haha, I am teh funneh. XD