Concessions to girliness?

To preface: I love -- read I am completely and maybe inappropriately amused by -- how music is handled in BL dramas. If it's not some cheesy varation on jazzy porno music, it's often desperately bippy and dramatic at once, though this could also be because I tend to avoid the really dark/unhappy/OMG LEIPU stories. Also because I have this weakness for certain seiyuu, and their dramas always seem to be the "lighter" ones, barring some Big Misunderstandings. The one I just finished had uke-chan being all WOEZ I MUST MAKE SEME-SAN HATE MEEEEE DDDDDD: as this dramatic piano music is riffing HARD in the background. I got nuthin'. XD

Which, uh, leads me to my whole "concession." >_> Normally, you see, I am not the hugest fan of outright "shoujo" series -- it's one of those reasons I was surprised I enjoy Ouran Host Club as much as I do; I normally don't, even if they're funny. Maybe it's just Haruhi, because man, she's like my hero or something. XD

But the point is, most of the time, I am either bored or irritated by excessive schmoopiness in a lot of stuff. I don't like romantic comedies -- I mean, they're amusing enough, but they're the sort of thing I only watch if it happens to be there, and I don't have to shell out $$ in any way to watch it. And if I have friends to watch it with, because that's always the win. But even then, if there's an alternate mode of entertainment -- I will watch The Nightmare Before Christmas for the fifty gajllionth and first time, gladly XD -- I would rather go for that. Most "chicklit" and its ilk, just from my own (admittedly limited) experience annoys the CRAP out of me, because it's all relationship, relationship, RELATIONSHIP WOE HAHA FUNNY HIJINKS YAY! --only really, not.

And yet, and yet, when the series is not deliberately trying to be romantic -- when it's something that is not marketed as a romance -- I can be, and often am, WIBBLY AS HELL OVER PAIRINGS. What is wrong with me? Srsly. I can't seem to watch or read a lot of romances without rolling my eyes straight out of my head. It's like, I'd rather have the fanservice than the canon, though canon confirmation (at least at the end of a series) is always awesome. I mean, my two favorite series are tactics and GetBackers, and it's hard to get more textually-subtextual than those two.

For some reason, when it's not given to me, and I'm allowed to either imagine it myself, or I'm reading doujinshi or fic or whatever, I find I fall for those standard (and stupid) romance cliches like a ton of bricks -- I have this secret, stupid shameful fondness for the Big Misunderstanding that leads to emo wangsting in the rain and then hot makeup sex I mean whut?. I hate emo, I can't take dramatic or serious or angsty characters that seriously at ALL, and yet, I have this huge soft spot for it in fandom.

(this is qualified to say "only when done well." Because, uh, you could have the most brilliant idea in the world and have it turn to crap on you. Case in point: my NaNoWriMo last year. I read it again recently, hoping for salvaging and ... ogod. D: I'm so glad I don't generally show my original work to people, I'll say that. XD;;;)

--I suppose this may be an argument for "why read fic?" but ... I haven't been, lately. Most of my flist writes for fandoms that I either a) know nothing about, b) don't care for or c) both. And that's cool, but it does mean I don't read a whole lot of fic these days, if only for sheer lack of stuff. D: But man, it don't even have to be fic, it can just be in my fancifully empty little head. >_>

And it so doesn't hurt help that so many "mainstream" seiyuu tend to act in BL dramas, too. Haha. :p

What I think I'm trying to get at (it's late and I'm tired and I'm working on something like a bit over six hours sleep from the night before and that's never good) is that romance when explicit turns me off (i.e., you could say that's "non-girly") but when I'm allowed to do it for myself, I am all SQUEE ("girly").

... also, so, "Two Princes" by Spin Doctors, oddly reminds me of Ouran. Even though everyone's rich, even the one Haruhi's dad disapproves of. Maybe it's the sheer irrelevant cheerful "eh, whatevs! :D" attitude in it. XD

OKAY I AM GOING TO BED NOW. 4REELZ.