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I have almost perfected katharon's keyboard smash!11

Sob, tonight is COUNTDOWN, and of course now I'm borrowing trouble for myself, worrying that things won't be finished in time, that I'll regret moving on my own, a thousand and one things that COULD GO WRONG! between now and tomorrow, when I will theoretically be unpacking. (I say theoretically because given my energy levels + how much sleep I don't plan on getting tonight, I could very well just be passed out. We'll have to see!) I am anxious and a little excited, and a lot AHHHHHH what is this AHHHHH about everything. Sob, I've gotten to the panic point of "do I have enough boxes? I don't have enough boxes! what am I doing, how am I going to transport myself tomorrow since I don't have a car do I have to call a taxi AHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhsob"

I almost wish I'd taken Monday off too, but I can't afford to do that right now. A-at least there WILL be a holiday coming up, and maybe if I'm lucky my computer will work with my new internet and I could take a couple of working-from-home days. That'd be kind of nice; I'd like to get used to my new living space. Really I'm just antsy now; everything is nearly done, and I have gotten to the point that I want it completely done. And I've hit the late-afternoon lethargy, where it is a chore to keep my eyes open and my typing coherent. :x Since the internet won't be set up in my new place until Sunday, I really plan on catching up on sleep this weekend, sob. And if I miss people I will-- go find a cafe or something with my laptop and be like GUYS GUYS LOVE ME I MISS YOU.

Nnngh, the gorgeous day actually isn't helping, because when I went out during lunch, I just wanted to curl up and nap. There is a distinct trend in my thoughts these days, which seem to follow the pattern of PACK-PANIC-SLEEPY-BAWWWW because I feel like I am missing cool stuff and while I think I will be happy once I move and have everything settled and can restart my schedule, I ... really hate the upheaval between the calm periods. My mom once accused me of only ever taking the easy way out of things--which I don't think is entirely true. I prefer easy smooth transitions and if there's going to be excitement I'd like to at least be rested for it, heh.

Still, all things aside, I think this could be entirely much worse. I'm going to allow myself to be okay with this--though I will be more okay when I've moved and everything is settled. And I'll be going into radio silence till the internet's set up at my new apartment, which will hopefully be sooner than later; I'm a little excited to actually get cable TV again. :|a (Hilariously, I think I've been updating this journal more now while I panic about offline stuff. IRONYYYYYY.)

--oh right, I need to work on springkink, too. Maybe a break will be a good thing. :|a

I'll see you guys soon. ♥