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[nekokoban]

How I spent my free time at work today.

It's sort of weird; it's one of those things you sort of notice, in a vaguely "mean girls from highschool" way -- I think most people do, from time to time, think this way, even if they don't mean it (and if you don't, you're a far better person than me) -- how there are certain folks, fan and professional alike, whose egos far balloon what talents they have. You know, the shrieking girl on the forum who insists that her writing is HIGH ART and you're all JUST JEALOUS because YOU ALL SUCK, or the guy who looks down on you because you're RUINING HIS PRECIOUS CALLING IN LIFE by perverting it into a mere hobby. Reading the abstract and the bulk of the article itself kind of raises a "well, duh?" impression in me, though it takes about 500x more words to say it.

... next spring_kink story to be posted tomorrow, and so OF COURSE I suddenly have a case of the "this is CRAP ISN'T IT D:" paranoias. Part of me is tempted to scrap the whole thing (short as it is) and just rewrite, though in true grand Procrastinators Annonymous fashion, I have something like 3/7 Y_C stories that are either unfinished or completely unstarted, and roughly a week and change to make or break the deadline.

... it's a growing experience. Yeah.

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[laylah.livejournal.com]

so -- totally unrelated -- i am supposed to have a phone interview tomorrow morning with yr recruiter, thanks to shadawyn's influence. anything I should say to her about the position on your team? (have just replied to yr email, but i think it was to your grownup address, so you might not be checking that much at home...?)

[nekokoban]

Nope, I got it! (I have gmail set to send grownup email to fun email just in case.) I've replied, too -- good luck with the interview! :D

[shadawyn.livejournal.com]

Good luck with the interview!

[ontogenesis.livejournal.com]

Haha, looks like an interesting read there.... :bookmarks:

It's difficult not to let your ego get out of control if a lot of people praise you. Then there are the people who aren't praised (or at least not by many), but their own imaginations are enough to make up for the lack of priase. ^^;;
:shrugs: It's tricky. In the arts, you need a certain amount of self-confidence, but if you have too much it affects your art negatively.

[nekokoban]

[nods] I was talking about this with one of my roommates last night -- there are (probably?) just as many genuinely talented people who're just as vain; it's just a lot more -- irritating? pitiable? -- when the UNtalented person puffs themselves up and self-declares genius. I mean, I think that on some level you do have to have a degree of guts just to put your stuff out there -- even if you don't want to acknowledge the possibility of a bad review, on some level, you think what you've done is good enough to share.

It's just when the reality of "you're not THAT good" clashes with your self-impression of god-given talent that's the problem. XD;

[kawaiigami.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I think all of us can get overconfident--it's part of being human, it's cool. We all make mistakes. What I look at more is a person's reaction to the realization that maybe they aren't the pwecious snowflake they thought they were. Reactions like those you describe above will definitely make me wonder about someone. Disappointment because you worked hard and tried your best but still fell short of what you wanted is okay, IMHO. You chalk it up to a learning experience. It takes guts to put yourself on the line like that, anyway.

Still, overinflated egos are annoying! People that cannot admit to an imperfection or consider the indea that they might be wrong annoy me highly. >_< I say this knowing I probably come across that way sometimes.^^;;;

[nekokoban]

I ... perhaps I'm cynical, but I find it hard to believe that anyone who goes on for pages (paragraphs?) at a time about how Truly Awesome they are is really as hot shit as they claim. :x I used to see the fen who would use the UR JUS JELUZ card a lot, though not as much these days? This could be because I don't participate in forums of any sort any more (unless one counts LJ comms, which certainly ARE a type of forum, just ... I don't know, I find it easier to be choosy with them? I dunno. XD)

I am 100% sure that I overinflate myself. I KNOW I do it, but at the same time, I also try to keep quiet about it. ^^; And eventually it passes, and I go back to thinking mayyyybe if I'm lucky, I'm that one spec of dust that clings to the toe of someone else's boot. Maybe. :p