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Happy Birthday, rivendellrose!

Swear to jeebus and cakes that I'm working on your birthday fic! Or at least that I will! augh chicken with head cut off!

[gnaws leg off]

So I tried to be good and go to the library to watch the video for the one class I missed Friday. ONLY IT ISN'T IN YET and the homework is almost all focusing on the stuff from that lecture. D: D: D: (kyonkun, that's why I didn't come help cook today. I WAS TRYING TO BE GOOD and I was studying only the last part of my valiant attempts defeated me. D:)

Also, the fifty gajillion and one "X Number of Such-and-Such Themes" really are disgustingly tempting. My only major quibble with a lot of them, however, seems to be that you have to pick ONE fandom/pairing and go from there; to me, that seems somehow unpleasantly restrictive. And even 31_days, which is one of the few that doesn't restrict you to one fandom/focus, is doing THEMES for the themes now, and I ... am not entirely keen on that. Does this make me an uncreative thinker? D:

I mean, I've done fairly well on the HaruKan 20 -- I've only posted something like thirteen, fourteen, but I've written eighteen of them -- but I kind of surprised myself with that. Part of it, I think, was the reactionary oh god tiny fandom WHY IS THERE NOT MORE? and part of it was also because I cheated and just wrote drabbles for a good six or seven of them. Uh.

I mean (she says, repeating herself) am I the only one in the world who feels vaguely guilty of posting single drabbles, like it's cluttering up my flist when in actuality I've posted totally unrelated life and fandom posts which were much shorter? I feel like if I'm going to be posting a fic on my LJ with the hopes that someone will read it and be entertained by it, I ... also sort of feel like I should make it a little bit more "worth their while" -- i.e., not short. Or, at least, more than one 100 words. Maybe 500! 500 is okay.

As for myself, it's not like I'm particularly discriminatory in my reading, when I have the time, and if the fandom/focus is rare enough, I don't care if it's fifty words or five thousand. Having written both, I wouldn't say that drabbles are harder than epics -- they both have their inherent problems in maintenence and timing -- but certainly one is easier to READ than the other. (Most of the time, at any rate.) But even knowing that about myself doesn't really alleviate that peculiar guilt (or maybe guilt is the wrong word, since it's rarely a feeling of "I shouldn't have done that, I should find some way to take it back/atone for it" as a "... was this really worth my time and theirs to post?" -- but not quite so apathetic so) of posting just drabbles unless I have five or six to go at a time.

Then again, long fics take much MORE effort (I think) on the part of both reader and writer -- you struggle more intensely for a drabble to find the right phrases for proper impact, but you struggle much longer to write something that's fifty thousand, eighty thousand words -- and so it balances out, but ...

Maybe I'm just nuts. 8D

Now I must needs dash off because there is a PARTAY in less than half an hour and I still have my notes strewn about every-which-way and will probably review amino acids one last time before saying EH SCREWIT and popping over. :D