Should I stay or should I go~

So, I'm debating getting a permanent account.

D:

MOSTLY, it's because ultimately it would be a single one-time payment and be done with it, as opposed to doling out an amount every year, both for paid LJ and for extra icons. Especially with recently, I've been using my LJ more often and thus toying with the possibility -- knowing myself, I'm probably going to be sticking with LJ for a while to come. I like the social aspect of it as well as the fandom portion; it's also a really easy way to keep track of folks. I'm not a stalker, really I'm not. D:

BUT AT THE SAME TIME there's also the issues with LJ/Six Apart being kind of like ... a yo-yo, up and down -- they're good! they're bad! they're good again! -- and so I waffle. It's also that while I can afford it, I also just moved, with all the attendant expenses, and my account needs a bit of a breather -- but the sale ends June 28th, and that's two days before payday AND four days before rent's due.

I know some of you guys out there have permanent accounts -- is it worth it? Should I suck it up and go ahead? Should I just keep staying as a paid account and continue on my hakuna matata philosophy?

Also watched the first two episodes of season 3 of the new Doctor Who; am working on downloading the rest! And trolling the fandom, er. I ... think I needed that reminder that, just becuase your fandom is bigger doesn't necessarily mean you'll find anything you want to read. D: I get used to my tiny teaspoon fandoms, where it's sort of amazing just to find another person who knows what you're talking about (HI SHOUNEN ONMYOUJI FANDOM I LOVE YOU?) -- and then I stumble into something BIG (last time it was Kingdom Hearts; before that it was Fullmetal Alchemist -- though that really was before it exploded online) and ... pffft. There are specific things I want to see, and I'm no longer used to wading through the reams of DEADWEIGHT WORDS just to find something I want to see.

This is because, uh, I -- I have this ... I don't even know WHERE it came from but I really like Ten/Jack, see? I've yet to really find anyone who writes Rose in a way that feels right to me -- most folks seem to be writing her "up," which makes sense from the Doctor's point of view, but doesn't feel right to me-the-reader -- and. Well.

Jack's not even a character type I like normally; sure he's cheerful, but he's also one of those suave hello-good-lookin' manwhore types that I usually can do without.

I STILL WANT DECENT TEN/JACK THAT DOESN'T END IN BITTERSWEET ANGST. Not that I want cute and fluff (thought that could be okay in doses?), but -- not something where the ending paints such an ultimately bleak picture for them, or spends the whole time being maudlin about Rose. I'm demanding, I know.

... speaking of deadweight words, I am totally stalling on working on my springkink stuff, can you tell? I made some progress today, though not as much as I'd like, but -- four whole paragraphs where before I had a sentence! That's gotta account for something. :Db

Somebody STOP ME before I try to write Doctor Who fic. Britishims, I do not know them, they do not stick in mah hedz. :(