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Grace weeks left: two
Thoughts: So last week was just bad (emotionally) and busy (everything else), so I was in no real place to sit down and write. I've discovered that I really am bad at writing when there's someone else around, even if they're not paying attention to me--if they're talking to me (or talking at me, as the case is right now), I get distracted and can't get more than maybe a few words at a time.
THE THING IS, I AM ON VACATION NOW! Surely this will be conductive to my writing!
BUT NO: first, I get sickish! My allergies go insane and now I basically have that horrible sore throat that comes about from when your sinuses explode and drain down your throat. Beyond that, I have been home for a day and a night and my dad is making up for a year of not really being talkative on the phone to lecture me hardcore. If lecturing was an Olympic sport, my dad would GO FOR THE GOLD. It started with him and my mom talking about the stock market, and somehow it became my dad grilling me on what my friends do for a living?? AND SOMEHOW THIS BECAME A LECTURE ON MY LIFE CHOICES AND WILL I BE OKAY IN THREE YEARS? IN FIVE YEARS?? TERRA, THINK ABOUT YOUR CAREER CHOICES AND WHAT YOU WILL BE DOING WITH YOURSELF!!! --this is, of course, because I made the mistake of telling him that I have friends who're working part-time or looking for at least part-time jobs right now. SILLY ME, NOT REALIZING HOW THIS SOMEHOW REFLECTED ON MY OWN CAREER.
"Terra, I am going to give you a BRAIN TEASER PROBLEM that they give to Microsoft employees!" he says. "YOUR CHALLENGE IS TO FIGURE IT OUT, OKAY? :B"
Father, I thought I was on vacation, why are you doing this to me! Also why are the lives of my friends, most of whom you have never met, going to directly impact my own career thoughts and choices? I am extraordinarily lucky in that I have full-time employment in a place I enjoy working--I've worked there for four years! I AM DOING OKAY. But he lectured me like when I was a student and unemployed and TERRA, LOOK TO THE FUTURE! THE FUTURE! I couldn't honestly tell if he was praising me or putting me down, in that fabulous way that Asian fathers have. Oh now he's lecturing me on the solution, it's apparently ALL ABOUT FLEXIBLE THINKING. In the course of me writing this post it has somehow become a parable of life using the Merchant of Venice. Father, what is this.
This is after my mom went :( at me a lot because--okay, so, about a month ago, she asked if I wanted to see Avatar when I visited! I said ehh, not really interested, I don't really want to. A week later, she tells me she got tickets for it! 3D IMAX, TERRA! IT'S THREE! DEE! I! MAX! Apparently this is supposed to immediately sway me and I will SEE THE LIGHT and be ready and willing to see it. Only--no. I'm not. I wasn't interested when I saw the previews, and I grew even less interested when I heard reviews from various friends. Yeah, yeah, I shouldn't make a judgment until I see it, but ... I don't really want to see it! I don't particularly care if people want to see it or not, but I had no interest, so I didn't want to drop $10 on it! AND I TOLD MOM THAT. BUT APPARENTLY SHE FORGOT, because when I was still kind of meh about the movie, and she started pouting at me and being all "well, if you don't WANT to, you can stay home" and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I can definitely see where a lot of my bad habits come from, visiting my parents.
IN CONCLUSION: I LOVE MY PARENTS BUT I AM NEVER EVER MOVING BACK TO AUSTIN AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
N-next week will hopefully be better.
ETA: AN HOUR LATER, HE WENT TO BED. After telling me he'd pay me money to lose weight and father, I don't think bribing is really the way to go--!
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