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TODAY: 9000000000000000000
ME: -9000000000000000000
AWESOME. \m/
Man, I have been negative lately, sorry guys. The saddest thing is it is not just any ONE THING; I WISH I could point to an event or a person and say, "that's it, that is what is my problem." But I can't, because it's a lot more than that; it is like everything is crumbling down in spite of what I do to fix it, and sometimes faster when I do. I am bailing out my little boat and at the same time I'm sloshing around so much that more water is coming in on the other end. It feels sort of like my entire life is exploding in multiple areas and at this point I am just starting to think, you know what, fuck it all, I will just punch everything and everyone in the face INCLUDING MYSELF and maybe things will get better. Or at least I will have such swollen black eyes that I can't see the next thing coming.
When I next post in this journal I will either have become a zen butterfly who no longer cares for the toils and troubles of this world, or I will be super-wangsty in that sort of "god I suck at everything and everyone hates me why do I try to do anything" way. STAY TUNED.
ME: -9000000000000000000
AWESOME. \m/
Man, I have been negative lately, sorry guys. The saddest thing is it is not just any ONE THING; I WISH I could point to an event or a person and say, "that's it, that is what is my problem." But I can't, because it's a lot more than that; it is like everything is crumbling down in spite of what I do to fix it, and sometimes faster when I do. I am bailing out my little boat and at the same time I'm sloshing around so much that more water is coming in on the other end. It feels sort of like my entire life is exploding in multiple areas and at this point I am just starting to think, you know what, fuck it all, I will just punch everything and everyone in the face INCLUDING MYSELF and maybe things will get better. Or at least I will have such swollen black eyes that I can't see the next thing coming.
When I next post in this journal I will either have become a zen butterfly who no longer cares for the toils and troubles of this world, or I will be super-wangsty in that sort of "god I suck at everything and everyone hates me why do I try to do anything" way. STAY TUNED.
