![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Dear Starbucks, why must your peppermint bark brownies be so tasty! And expensive. :(
Secret: While I laugh at all the Starbucks jokes -- and living in Seattle, they're pretty damn copious -- I actually have yet to be disatisfied with any drink or food I've gotten there. And the people who work at the outlet next to my workplace are kind of super-awesome. I get compliments on my hair and smiley faces drawn on my drink cups and heckled for wanting bagels when there aren't any. They're nice. :x
However: I have been promised cookies on Monday. Soothe my heart with other baked goods, because I'm really easy that way.
Have been hacking away at the Yuletide story -- it's a lot of fun, but my mental image of myself after posting it is sort of like, I dunno, the bloody and beaten shounen hero staggering triumphantly in with an arm around a friend's shoulders because one's too tired to quite stand on one's own and being all "THUMBS UP, GUYS, THUMBS UP." I'm just a little worried that my recipient won't like it, because I just may shrivel up and fade away a little if that's the case. XD
Recently, I have been waffling between a) wanting more tactics fic, damnit D: and b) wanting fic about Griselda and her mother (Odin Sphere). I joke that Griselda's the only character in the game who totally had her shit together and NO ISSUES, and of course she dies in the very first scene. I blame "93 Maidens," which![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
inarticulate pimped the other day; the majority of it isn't actually that fitting, but the parts that DO feel like they really do. I think part of me is vaguely disappointed that Griselda and Gwendolyn's mother is reduced only to two throwaway comments. I don't actually care so much about the other missing parents in the game -- but somehow I'm disappointed, in a way, that Ragnanival's Queen is never explained.
... I think my big problem right now is that I feel a little beside myself. I have a number of Big Projects inprogress that I have been throwing myself at with all the satisfaction of a kid who knows the ground'll catch her with minimum damage, but ... it's like I want to do more. :\ I want to write more! I want to write a lot more, but am feeling distinctly uncreative and uninspired.
I've got the energy, but neither the focus nor the drive -- nor, in fact, ANY IDEA WHATSOEVER OF WHAT I'M DOING -- to get anything done. I pick a little at this, I poke a little at that, and then the next thing I know, I'm playing Spider Solitaire and losing. It's a little distressing. :| That may be one of my only quibbles with tiny fandoms -- I love their smaller, "safer" feeling, and the fact that there are a handful where I can look at all the names and go "hey! I know you! you're on my flist!" but at the same time, there are times when I miss the heyday of, oh, YahooGroups and mailing lists and stuff. XD Not because I necessarily think it was better "back then," but because that was where I got my start, and it feels more interactive (in wistful rose-colored memory) than some of the communities I watch today.
Confession: I really wish I knew more people online. XD; Or I could interact with people more -- I have a problem with not being comfortable with spamming people with random things unless I know them, and that list is like ... five. At tops. I'm conditionally shy; I am super-loud and blunt and spammy if I know and am friends with someone; around people I don't know or barely know, I just sort of ... clam up and smile and nod a lot. Most of the time, I feel like I need to have something worth contributing before I plonk myself into someone's LJ thread(s) or whatever and start yammering.
On the flipside, I really wish people would do that to ME more often, because I really like talking to folks. Especially in tiny fandoms. T^Tb I, I'm not that boring, am I? Oh god, I hope not. XD;
What I need is a revolution, but this late in the year, where on EARTH am I gonna find one.
Secret: While I laugh at all the Starbucks jokes -- and living in Seattle, they're pretty damn copious -- I actually have yet to be disatisfied with any drink or food I've gotten there. And the people who work at the outlet next to my workplace are kind of super-awesome. I get compliments on my hair and smiley faces drawn on my drink cups and heckled for wanting bagels when there aren't any. They're nice. :x
However: I have been promised cookies on Monday. Soothe my heart with other baked goods, because I'm really easy that way.
Have been hacking away at the Yuletide story -- it's a lot of fun, but my mental image of myself after posting it is sort of like, I dunno, the bloody and beaten shounen hero staggering triumphantly in with an arm around a friend's shoulders because one's too tired to quite stand on one's own and being all "THUMBS UP, GUYS, THUMBS UP." I'm just a little worried that my recipient won't like it, because I just may shrivel up and fade away a little if that's the case. XD
Recently, I have been waffling between a) wanting more tactics fic, damnit D: and b) wanting fic about Griselda and her mother (Odin Sphere). I joke that Griselda's the only character in the game who totally had her shit together and NO ISSUES, and of course she dies in the very first scene. I blame "93 Maidens," which
inarticulate pimped the other day; the majority of it isn't actually that fitting, but the parts that DO feel like they really do. I think part of me is vaguely disappointed that Griselda and Gwendolyn's mother is reduced only to two throwaway comments. I don't actually care so much about the other missing parents in the game -- but somehow I'm disappointed, in a way, that Ragnanival's Queen is never explained.... I think my big problem right now is that I feel a little beside myself. I have a number of Big Projects inprogress that I have been throwing myself at with all the satisfaction of a kid who knows the ground'll catch her with minimum damage, but ... it's like I want to do more. :\ I want to write more! I want to write a lot more, but am feeling distinctly uncreative and uninspired.
I've got the energy, but neither the focus nor the drive -- nor, in fact, ANY IDEA WHATSOEVER OF WHAT I'M DOING -- to get anything done. I pick a little at this, I poke a little at that, and then the next thing I know, I'm playing Spider Solitaire and losing. It's a little distressing. :| That may be one of my only quibbles with tiny fandoms -- I love their smaller, "safer" feeling, and the fact that there are a handful where I can look at all the names and go "hey! I know you! you're on my flist!" but at the same time, there are times when I miss the heyday of, oh, YahooGroups and mailing lists and stuff. XD Not because I necessarily think it was better "back then," but because that was where I got my start, and it feels more interactive (in wistful rose-colored memory) than some of the communities I watch today.
Confession: I really wish I knew more people online. XD; Or I could interact with people more -- I have a problem with not being comfortable with spamming people with random things unless I know them, and that list is like ... five. At tops. I'm conditionally shy; I am super-loud and blunt and spammy if I know and am friends with someone; around people I don't know or barely know, I just sort of ... clam up and smile and nod a lot. Most of the time, I feel like I need to have something worth contributing before I plonk myself into someone's LJ thread(s) or whatever and start yammering.
On the flipside, I really wish people would do that to ME more often, because I really like talking to folks. Especially in tiny fandoms. T^Tb I, I'm not that boring, am I? Oh god, I hope not. XD;
What I need is a revolution, but this late in the year, where on EARTH am I gonna find one.
Tags:
![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png){kind=small}
From:
no subject
From:
no subject
My tiny fandoms are so awesome, but they also make me said, because eight times out of ten, I can't figure out why they're tiny fandoms and not beloved by all. :( I'm three episodes away from the end of Heat Guy J and was like O SNAP I SHOULD HAVE SEEN THAT COMING. BUT I DID NOT.
Black Butler is also awesome, and I am waiting for v3 to come out soonest. :|b I just talk about HGJ in my LJ more because I talk to
From:
no subject
From:
no subject
--but yeah, I can safely say that if someone is egging me on, I will, in fact, write things that I will later look back upon and go WHAT. WHAT WAS I THINKING. Which is often very funny for my roommate (because I will be like WHAT AM I DOING and she'll just laugh), but I still feel a little ashamed? Wut. XD
From:
no subject
Y-yes. EXACTLY.
From:
no subject
I got convinced to write dancing in a club fic. I HAVE NO SHAME WHEN I KNOW PEOPLE ARE INTERESTED. T_______Tb
From:
no subject
--AHAHA OMG AWESOME. M-my horrible stories tend to be along the lines of… either horribly and deliberately OOC or just. Gore to an extreme. Sob. ;; D-damn Kaori Yuki people getting me back into her series…es. WITH THEIR GAY CLOWNS AND THEIR INCEST AND THEIR VIOLENCE.
From:
no subject
KAORI YUKI IS AWESOME. 8D She's kind of my guilty pleasure, really, because there are times when I look at the stuff she writes and I'm like "... what." But then I remember that it's kind of bizarrely awesome anyway, so what can you do. XD I want Ludwig Kakumei v4 like, yesterday.
From:
no subject
Y-yeah. YEAH PRETTY MUCH. I love her lesser known series, really, like Neji, but I recently got convinced to reread Angel Sanctuary despite it being CONFUSING AS ALL FUCK and. :( I love the characters so. s-sob.
From:
no subject
Oh man, I had a friend in high school who adored Angel Sanctuary, but I somehow never really got much into it. THAT DOES NOT STOP ME FROM FANGIRLING HER OTHER STUFF-- man, even with decently famous mangaka, I always like their smaller stories better. XD
Fandoms are hilarious. :|b
From:
no subject
Yes T^Tb
From:
no subject
But then sometimes you get awesome characters + awesome plot, and then it's GO! GO! GO! ♥♥
From:
no subject
From:
no subject
Then there's tactics, but v10 isn't even listed on Amazon JP yet. :(
... but for the nmost part, yes, I do much better with character-driven series. I think it's because a lot of times, people don't really seem to be thinking through their BIG PLOT other than "here is point A!" and "there is point Z!" and "let's make shit up as long as it gets us from A to Z!"
Maybe I'm too picky. :(